In memory of Cooper…

Nine years and five months, that’s how long I shared my life with Cooper. I wish it could have been a lifetime. I like to consider Cooper being my true love. He taught me what love for an animal is and losing him taught me how much of our lives they fill.

It’s taken me a few months to write about his passing and updating his website. It hasn’t been easy, copping with Cooper’s loss has been quite difficult for me. I’ve been lucky to have live my adult life without losing an immediate family member, so I don’t know what that loss feels like. But losing Cooper has been detrimental to me. Having a pet in your lives means that your life revolves around them. You have their feeding times present at all times and with a rabbit, you monitor their every move to prevent any illness. You don’t realize how much of your life they occupy until you lose them. I was very aware of this, in the last few years, I dedicated my life to him. I created his website and grew his social media platforms to help bring awareness for proper rabbit care. I made a career off of this, and I’m thankful to say that thanks to Cooper I am where I am today. Wanting to help other rabbit parents pushed me to learn so much and because of this, I am where I am in my career.

There hasn’t been a day since Cooper’s passing that I haven’t shed tears. Everything that I do reminds me of him. What hurts the most, is knowing how much he suffered at the end. He should have died of old age soundly in his sleep, he didn’t deserve to suffer. This is what hunts me the most.

Carrying on with his social media platforms was something I wanted to do, I wanted his legacy to live on. But I have found it difficult and overwhelming to do. Finding images to share and reading everyone’s comments/messages are triggers for me and there are some days that I don’t want to do it. At the same time, I’ve received so many supporting messages thanking me for continuing to post and that’s what’s keeping me posting.

It wasn’t until this week that I was finally able to go through all the messages of condolence that I received on Instagram. It was amazing to see the immediate support that I received, and I’m still receiving it. It was so overwhelming that I had to open a PO box for him, so many wanted my address to send something. And I’m still receiving cards and gifts of condolence. Yesterday I was at a local store shopping with my husband, when we approached the cashier she immediately asked me if I was Cooper’s mom. We were both frozen at our tracks. I said yes and she expressed her condolences and told me to give myself time to heal, and how very sorry she was for my loss. I felt my voice cracking as we spoke and as soon as we stepped out of the store the tears just shed down my cheeks.

It’s not easy. I recently read an article about a similar situation and one paragraph resonated with me.

“Pheobe’s death makes me feel like someone has come along with a giant eraser and rubbed out my face. I am going to have to learn to exist without a face. And possibly a personality”

That’s me in a nutshell. I feel as I’ve lost my personality, my face, the one thing that gave me purpose and made me not only be a better person but do better for animals alike.

I was very lucky to have him in my life, and I’ll be eternally thankful that he was placed in it. He was perfect, and sometimes even the best of luck seems perfectly devastating.

In loving memory of Cooper the Pooper – 12/05/09 – 05/21/19

21 thoughts on “In memory of Cooper…”

    1. Thank you Sebastian, you’re too kind. I hope he’s snuggling with your dad.

    2. He is!! And hes looking over you and your family!! Hes so lucky to have you as a bunny mom!!

  1. Time does help. Hopefully when you are ready you will open your heart to another bun. You have so much love to give. And while there is no other Cooper, there is a bun out there needing love ❤️

    1. I’m sure I’ll adopt when time is right. Hopefully Cooper will send the right one my way. Thank you ♥️

  2. Thank you for sharing his life with us and showing us what real love looks like. In a world with so much sadness, Cooper and you are a bright light. Long live King Cooper. Xoxo, Thumper & Jenna

  3. Andrea,
    I wish there were words to ease the pain, even just a decimal of percentage. I think of you daily and send warmth your way. Cooper and you were our first Instagram friends. I am blessed to have crossed paths with you both. His spirit lives on in every single like, comment, follow and life he touched. He was never “never just a rabbit” to anyone. Cooper had the personality that grasps a million hearts. You and him have done so much for the bunny community, and you continue to do so now as you share your emotions with the world. Cooper is over the rainbow bridge, looking down on you pain free, and dancing around your feet every day. One day, I pray it’s long from now, you will be reunited and he will binkying towards you. We’re here if you need anything or just want to talk, video chat, or if you simply want a picture of Thumper.
    Love, Alexa

  4. I believe we are actually closer to our pets than family members. The daily interactions we have, watching their every move to ensure they are eating and pooping correctly, are getting enough excercise, our world revolves around everything about them . They comfort us on our bad days like no human could ever do. They are our life and when theirs ends we are just like an empty shell. The pain is immeasurable. Grief is a personal thing , but the grief of losing a pet is possibly the worst thing that could happen to us.

    1. Joyce your words are exactly how I feel. Thank you for sharing your message with me. ♥️

  5. This was beautiful, I had tears coming down my face. I dread the day that I will loose my precious buns. ❤️ I will continue to keep you in my prayers.

  6. As hard as it is to constantly get those condolences and reminders of your loss, I’m beyond happy that you are still getting that ongoing support. Too many people might not understand how deep this loss cuts, but it sounds like you are still hearing from people who do, or at least those who are able to admit that they don’t. I pray that with time and healing it does start to get easier, that you do start to figure out your new normal. Grief is horrible, but it really does show us how much love we have for the one who passed.

  7. As a rabbit owner and rvt words cannot express how much my heart is broken for you. Losing your first pet is one that stays on your heart forever. You will feel guilty and anger and earth shattering sadness as well as cry everyday. I did this everyday for a year after my first cat passed away. He was only 4 years old. That day was 9 years ago in march. 6 years ago my daddy went to heaven suddenly and I felt like the world had stopped. Nothing can prepare us for the deep pain and hurt we feel when our very favorite people and animals go to heaven before us.

    Even though you are hurting so deeply right now know that we love you and I know that my daddy welcomed Cooper with open arms and his favorite snack.

    Love and hugs from us to you.

    1. Thank you so much Hope for sharing your story with me. I do hope Cooper has met several welcoming humans on the rainbow bride ♥️

  8. I felt a lot of what you are feeling now when I lost my first bun Juliet. She had a stroke so it was very hard for her and I at the end. So reading this brings tears to my eyes.
    I am glad you have shared so much of Cooper with the world and continue to do so.
    Sending love and hugs your way. 💓

  9. Andrea, you are an AMAZING person. You and Cooper will always be together in your hearts. We all understand your pain, and are so very thankful that you allowed us all to enjoy your sweet little man Cooper, and the love you shared with each other. ❤🐇❤

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